Getting older sucks! But I think worse than the realization that I am getting older is that I don't necessarily feel all that more adult, especially not a responsible one.
Now, I wouldn't say that I am irresponsible. And as far as career adult goes, I'm doing alright. Almost two years into my first real adult job, with paid time off, expenses and everything, I am pretty much rocking it. But I am not my job (and sometimes I think my job is taking over me). As for everything else, there leaves much to be desired.
Last year was a big year for me, the big 30! I was super scared, but then it was turned out being 30 wasn't so bad. And I definitely don't feel 30. Yet, I had big plans! More specifically, a 5 year plan. Five years to just kill it at my job, find an awesome job, get married, and be at least close to my first kid.
So, one year into my five year plan, and what have I accomplished...Not much. I am still painfully, chronically single. I tried online dating - had exactly one date. I did take to the Internet to learn to flirt. But I am not sure if (1) my new flirting attempts are so subtle that it's not much progress, (2) I am still too awkward that I anti-flirt, or (3) I am just not putting my eggs in the right basket, so to say.
That is why I have decided to scrap the 5-year plan. Well, not so much scrap (the eventual outcomes are still a goal), but rather to set a more realistic, shorter goal. Annnd that's how the 1-year plan was born! *blows trumpets*
I am a very structure loving person. And I cannot resist marking things off lists (it's not a compulsion, it's a quirk. I'm quirky!) So, to hold myself account able I created a check sheet. For everyday for 1 year I will mark off every item on my sheet that I complete. And I will hold myself accountable for making sure I complete most or all of my daily activities.
The daily activities vary. I think a big part of being a responsible adult is taking care of yourself. I do this in fits and spurts. So, I am now holding myself accountable to eating healthy and exercising every day (more or less). Other items are less intense, but still important, like remembering to floss and putting on lotion to keep my skin baby smooth.
But some items aren't just about physical well being. I found recently that I let too many things I love become less important as stress took over my life. I can't generate the will to keep my body healthy if my mind isn't. So, one of my daily items is reading or writing at least 30 minutes a day. And thus, this blog was born!
I see this as a two birds with one stone kind of thing. First, I satisfy one of my daily check boxes by occasionally updating my progress. But also, I can use this blog to keep myself accountable. And if anyone reads this, they can keep me accountable too. :) Granted, this blog won't get action everyday - I see this as chronically important progress related to my 1-year plan - and I have another blog needing love plus a shelf full of books. Not to mention the one I am writing (which is going terribly, btw).
So, this is the beginning of...something. If this is the only post in this blog, then I guess I failed. But none of THAT negative attitude! I am going to rock this, punk rock princess style! (Or whatever).

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